Content or Complacent
Something I have been thinking a lot about is my accomplishments in this life. I am very proud of myself for the things I have done, places I have been, and the people I have met. But I can't help but wonder if I am living up to my full potential. Is there more I could be doing? The answer is always yes in my mind, I am a little bit of an overachiever. Which can be great on the days that I am incredibly motivated to write more, learn new things, and take on the world. But other days, to be honest, I just don't want to.
There are days where I feel like I am running on the treadmill of life, burning all my energy and getting nowhere. Completing tasks not for myself, but so I can be what others want me to be. And I begin to ponder upon why I do so many things. Why am I always pushing myself? Why can't I just be happy as I am?
After a lot of thought, I realized the question I should be asking is, "how can I be content without being complacent?". How do I find that sweet spot where I am happy with five W's of life (who, what, where, when, why) while satisfying the human desire for intellectual growth. In that sweet spot, there is no burning the candle at both ends. There is no going back to school for degrees you don't want, just because your colleagues are doing it, or your parents think you should. In this space between can and want, there is fulfillment.
I am not going to lie, I don't have an answer for you. But I can tell you, that when you start looking for this sweet spot, you get closer to it. Say you are an acupuncturist, and you can go back to school for two more years to get your Chinese Herbal License, and then another two years to get your doctorate in Oriental Medicine, but you just don't have the desire to. You would rather devote your time and energy to other projects like writing, and playing music. That doesn't make you complacent or lazy, it makes you content, it makes you self-aware.
True happiness is found in that place, that sweet spot of life, where there is a balance. The balance between your needs and wants. The place where you know what you are capable of, but don't feel forced to do it. I am capable of many things, anything really. But being able to pick what I will do, instead of feeling like I have to do all of them makes me truly happy. And so far, from what I can tell, that is being content.
Below: The sweet spots I have found so far....